Just a couple pictures...

I finally had the chance to go and put together a uniform for a new project that Exit13 is hoping to undertake, it's not finished yet, still has some minor details, but I'm really happy with what I've got so far. Jake got in on the action by finding a lab coat at the DI after I'd searched for and found one elsewhere... some people have all the luck, I like mine better still though.

Hopefully the group will have some videos up before the end of the month.

It's like prestige mode...

For most of my conscious life I've tried to make a point of not panicking no matter what situation I find myself, I can only hope that I've been successful in maintaining that outward appearance, ask the people around me, I really don't know. That said however, I've found that there are times that you find yourself completely in over your head without enough warning to hold your breath, and you can't help but choke a little.

Just last week I found out that, for health reasons, the neighborhood Cub Master was being released from his post. Under normal circumstances that'd be no problem, the reason that this has me more than a little worried is (a) that looking at the current trend in the area, there isn't going to be a new Cub Master called any time really soon, and (b) I'm the designated Assistant Cub Master. I can only pray that somebody besides myself is called as Cub Master, because I'll admit that I have absolutely no idea what I'm doing, and the Blue and Gold Banquet is scheduled for two weeks from now.

In short I'm feeling more than a little overwhelmed right now, with full time work, and the new Semester coming up, however, I think I can use this situation I'm in to illustrate some kind of a point here. The question I've been asking myself is "how in the world am I going to be able to manage all this...?" and the answer is very easily, "I have no idea," but I know that it can and will be done. Why? Not because of any innate ability I have, but because of the people I know are counting on things getting done, who are, whether they know it or not, counting on my getting it done. It's funny how knowing other people are depending on you makes you get things done that you never thought you'd be able to manage otherwise.

Really, in the gist of things this is a really small matter, it'll be taken care of, with the help of others with the advice and encouragement of those who have gone before me, but the idea can be applied to bigger things. For example, I imagine that this is more or less a constant state of being for a parent regarding home, children, finances, etc. you never know what's going to happen, only that you have to make sure that things get done, for the benefit of the people closest to you. We all have our moments where we think we can't go on much more without giving up and just collapsing into a heap wherever we stand, but we can make it through, we were built to be able to.

Look around yourself and see everybody around you, those can lend you support, those may without even knowing it, be giving you the gumption to move forward, to reach out and pull you back up when you feel like you've gone under. They're there, friends, family, the people who look up to you, and who depend on your doing your very best. You'll make it through, we all can as we don't try to rely only on ourselves only, and if as we remember others before ourselves, it can give us the strength and conviction to tackle any obstacle that comes between us and success.

Read more >> Options >>

Another Day in Paradise

Finding a drive is a difficult thing to do sometimes, we're only human after all, but it's what keeps us going from day to day, the thing that keeps us focused and moving forward, sometimes I worry that I've lost sight of mine, but hey, that's life for now, it'll show up sooner or later. Almost another week has gone by, and I've yet to figure out if anything worthwhile has happened, and remember if there was anything I was looking forward to other than just checking off another week on the calendar. Things have been pretty slow, work, school, and more or less life in general, with little to break it up or shoot for. Yup, that's worrisome for a person.

Shooting for long term goals is simple, you decide on what you want in the distant future and tell yourself that's what will happen, but without the little goals driving us forward it becomes less a goal, and more an unrealistic dream. The world keeps on turning around, and even if every day we remind ourselves of the big picture, if the details aren't fleshed out then it really defeats the purpose, and we end up somehow settling on a horizon line with a stick figure on it rather than the masterpiece we imagine our lives becoming. I think most of us are guilty from time to time of losing sight of the details, maybe more than we'd like to imagine.

If we can't find something worthwhile every week, and if we can't find something to look forward to in the coming week, I think we need to re evaluate what's going on and where we're going to. Consistently uneventful days and weeks turn all too quickly into uneventful years, and in extreme cases, even a completely uneventful life. Every person is different, so there's no real cut and dry way to define a solution, only to suggest finding what makes you yourself tick, and turning that into goals and personal drive. It's my suggestion, not just to anybody who reads this, but to myself, to find what drive we can in every day, to set goals for the little things, which in turn help make the big things fall right into place.

What's my own personal goal for this week? Well, find a goal for next week that can create a personal drive, something to look forward to, and follow through on it.