Pass it on

I was actually wondering whether I would fill this out after having just filled a different one and posted it here, but after seeing my name at the bottom of Kim's blog as somebody this is being passed to, well, it was set in stone. Let's do this.

A: Attached or Single? Single
B: Best friend? Scott
C: Cake or Pie? Cake
D: Day of Choice? Sunday Evening
E: Essential Item? It's a toss up between a supply of Phoenix Down or Underwear...
F: Favorite Color? Cobalt Blue
G: Gummy Bears or Worms? ...worms?
H: Hometown? The City of T
I: Indulgence? Katamari Damacy... it's a guilty one
J: January or July? Because I like good weather, January
K: Kids? I hate questions that are one word with a question mark...
L: Life isn't complete without? Friends and Family
M: Marriage Date? Seriously?
N: Number of Brothers & Sisters? Three brothers, two sisters
O: Oranges or Apples? Apples, but only crunchy ones...
P: Phobias? Helplessness
Q: Quotes? "The greatest glory consists not in never falling... but in rising every time we fall. Success is not final; failure is not fatal; it is the courage that keeps us going."
R: Reason to smile? Others
S: Season of choice? Late Fall
T: Tag seven peeps! (see list below)
U: Unknown fact about me? For part of my life I collected free internet cds, I still have a lot of them, you never know when they'll could in handy... could be never... could be tomorrow.
V: Vegetable? Broccoli
X: X-ray or Ultrasound? um... I'm not exactly sure what this question is asking...
Y: Your fave food? None that I can think of
Z: Zodiac sign? Gemini

Now, considering that everybody whose blog I read has already done this... except for one... I'm nominating Austin... though the whole Brilliant thing with his blog is... questionable... now to go kick his butt so he'll do this...

The Great Fifty Things Survey Caper

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought? I need a haircut...
2. How much cash do you have on you? Eleven bucks and some change
3. Whats a word that rhymes with “DOOR?” Lore
4. Favorite planet? Irk
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone? That I missed? My Mom
6. What is your favorite ring tone on your phone? The Steel Samurai theme from Pheonix Wright
7. What shirt are you wearing? My Legend of Zelda T-Shirt
8. Do you “label” yourself? It happens sometimes
9. Name the brand of your shoes you are currently wearing? I don't think socks count...
10. Bright or Dark Room? Dim, but it could be a little darker in here.
11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you? I think she'll be okay with me stealing this in my spare time...
12. What does your watch look like? It has the Lich King's Crown (from The Lord of the Rings)
13. What were you doing at midnight last night? um... it all kinda blends together... erm, on my computer?
14. What did your last text message you received on your cell say? "0_0" -Jo
15. Where is your nearest 7-11? Around the corner... what corner? Take your pick.
16. Whats a word that you say a lot? Okay.
17. Who told you he/she loved you last? Well, that's been a while I think.
18. Last furry thing you touched? Raiden's head when he came to work for lunch today.
19. How many drugs have you done in the last three days? Over the counter count? One.
20. How many rolls of film do you need developed? I've gone digital, oh yeah! That said, I have a couple of memory cards to do...
21. Favorite age you have been so far? The past year and a half hasn't been too shabby, I'll go with the year of 20-21
22. Your worst enemy? Shouldn't it be more a matter of who my best enemy is?
23. What is your current desktop picture? A cool picture by Ken Akamatsu of the Love Hina characters
24. What was the last thing you said to someone? "Yes?"
25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly what would it be? The Million is tempting, but flying.
26. Do you like someone? Specifically? It's hard to say.
27. The last song you listened to? "Across the Sun" it's a pretty awesome one.
28. What time of day were you born? Some time.
29. Whats your favorite number? 13
30. Where did you live in 1987? Same place I've always lived... only more upstairs...
31. Are you jealous of anyone? myeh, off and on
32. Is anyone jealous of you? If they are I'd like to hear about it actually
33. Where were you when 9/11 happened? At home for the first, First Period for the second
34. What do you do when vending machines steal your money? Twitch a bit, consider destroying the machine, and calmly walk away.
35. Do you consider yourself kind? Sometimes.
36. If you had to get a tattoo, where would it be? myeh, probably the boring left upper arm, but for a good reason, ask me if you're overcome with interest.
37. If you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be? Japanese of course
38. Would you move for the person you loved? Yes, for love, what would most of us not do?
39. Are you touchy feely? Not generally, but there are exceptions, I tend to let other people choose how much or little space they want around me.
40. Whats your life motto? Be yourself, think for yourself.
41. Name three things that you have on you at all times? Pocket Knife, Ring, a spare car key...
42. Whats your favorite town/city? The City of T, not for the place, for a few good friends, and a few good memories.
43. What was the last thing you paid for with cash? A Khaos and a Tabasco Slim Jim.
44. When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper and mailed it? um... about a year I think.
45. Can you change the oil on a car? Yes, but why do that if Scott can do it for me at the Lube?
46. Your first love: what is the last thing you heard about him/her? She had a dream that was a cross between Gilmore Girls and Twilight...
47. How far back do you know about your ancestry? A bit, just a sec... let me go read the volumes on my book shelf...
48. The last time you dressed fancy, what did you wear and why did you dress fancy? What's fancy? The last time I wore a suit was last winter, I was probably at church.
49. Does anything hurt on your body right now? Yeah.
50. Have you been burned by love? If I knew precisely what that meant I might be able to give an answer, but since I'm not quite sure...

Sleepless Nights and Photo Mosaics...

Insomnia Strikes again.

What is your first name? Joshua

What is your favorite food? erm... I don't really have one... boiled broccoli?

What high school did you go to? Taylorsville High School
What is your favorite color? Cobalt Blue
Who is your celebrity crush? hmm... Jennifer Connely?
Favorite drink? 7/11 Hot Chocolate (When the weather is good)
Dream vacation? Akihabara
Favorite dessert? Fudgcicles
What you want to be when you grow up? Useful
What do you love most in life? The Empire
One word to describe you. Curious
Your favorite animal? The Gray Fox

1. If Only, 2. lunch: tofu Thai green curry w/brown rice, 3. DSCN0134, 4. The Secret Life of the Moon, 5. hailey, 6. yummm, 7. Akihabara, Japan, 8. Fudgcicle malfunction, 9. Run Bunny Run, 10. Peregrine Falcon :: Empire State Building, 11. Oh, I like to stand here and watch the birds..., 12. Attentive Grey Fox

Remember that one time?

Well, because I try to keep the rules on these things, and I posted on the good ol' Jay Bon Goh blog under this activity, here goes nothing.

As a comment here on the blog, leave one memory that you and I have shared, regardless of how well or how little you knew me at the time, just about everything is fair game, so long as you remember it, and I at least have a vague recollection of it...

Next, repost the basic instructions on your own blog and see what turns up. You may be surprised, you may not, but in general, memories with friends are never bad things to dig up every now and again, heck, maybe you'll even find something to jot down in the dusty old journal.

The Dual Nature of Belief

I was thinking about something or other today, I can't really remember what it was, but I ended on a strand of thought I've gone over a few times. That strand is belief. Belief is an awesome thing, it's an enabling kind of thought process. If you believe that something is so, then in your mind it becomes so. It helps you to accomplish things you may never have tried otherwise. We as humans believe in a ton of things, we can believe in ourselves, in others, in honesty, in virtues, in a purpose, all of these things helping us to better ourselves in some way or another. It's not a matter of weather something we believe is true or right, the belief can benefit us.

That's not my entire strand of thought of course, the above is pretty well accepted by just about everybody who's ever practiced it, which is most of the world's population I imagine. No, the completion of the strand was this, that belief can also work against us, though I'm not sure if people ever really think about it, perhaps if they did, they would work around it. Some examples, people can believe they can't use computers, they can believe they can't play a sport, they can believe that it's better to chew their gum with the paper wrapper still on... anyway, the point is that in the end, a lot of these things can be counter productive. A lot of the time though, I don't think that we catch them when we say it.

When we believe something negative, it more often than not comes out something like, I can't use a computer, I can't play this sport, etc. The definitive cannot, takes the place of the simple fact that we don't think we can. We can believe so many different things, we can enable ourselves in so many different areas of our life through simple belief. Why not in these areas? What keeps us back from achieving everything? From doing anything? My thought is that people simply hold themselves back through firm disbelief in their own ability, it becomes rooted, and we begin to believe that rather than being just a thought on our part, it's a fact.

There are those who look past this, who ignore what they've been told, perhaps even what others have told them, and believe that anything is possible. People can believe that if they put their mind to it, that if they try, even if it takes time, that they can do it. These are the great people, and I personally believe that we all have it in us to become great people. We can all become people who dare to do, who dare to learn, who dare to break through the impossible, be it our own disbelief, which becomes a solid I can't to us, or to breaking through scientifically, medically, or mechanically, to find something that everybody looked past.

We can be whatever we want to be, so long as we don't let anybody else, or more importantly, ourselves, hold us back from our own infinite potential.

Catching up

Right, since it's been so long since an actual update on this thing, I think I'll just do a quick catch up on my life. It may not turn out particularly deep or exciting, but life isn't always deep or exciting, sometimes it's just life. Let's do this.

I watched Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix last night, it reminded me how much I love the character of Luna, she's awesome. Evanna Lynch did a really good job of playing her in the movie I think.

First, I'd been waiting for Metal Gear Solid 4 to come out for ages, it's finally been here, and yes, it's yet again a great game, well designed, fun to play over and over again, with a well put together and thought provoking story. It'll be interesting to see where the story goes from here.

Next, it was my birthday last month, this year isn't really a groundbreaking birthday, no new special privileges come with it this time... dang...

I'm working full time right now, but don't seem to be making any real money... I hate it when that happens...

Anime is slow right now, I'm looking and looking, but it's tough to find one that I can really latch onto. For the record, Gurren Laggen and Lucky Star are both looking really good, and Samurai 7 is a pretty decent price at Best Buy right now, thinking of picking that one up.

I've been playing Maplestory again... it finally works on Vista for everybody's information, everybody should play it... or at least try it... it's deceptively addictive for a simple sidescrolling MMO. Yes, I have three characters at the moment...

Hmm, I think that's about all that's going on at the moment... ah yes, I'm also the Assistant Cub Master right now, Cub Country is coming up, hopefully we all survive it.

Issues, I guess

Apparently I've had a few people upset with me for the past few months, my apologies for that, I really had no idea. The issue is over for now, for those who don't know what's what, I'll see if I can clear it up.

So, a few months ago I was out on the town with one of my best friends, my Barnes & Noble membership card, we'd gotten a really good coupon for CDs and were out trying to choose what we would get. In the end we couldn't come up with anything, and so sent out a mass text to a bunch of people (some of which I hadn't talked to in a while, but I was feeling generous) to see if they wanted anything before the coupon expired.

In the end I got one text back, it was from an old girlfriend who I hadn't even really talked to for about a year before. She had a request, I eventually found the cd and took it to her later that week. Turns out we still had a lot of fun together, so after a few weeks we ended up dating again. That's the old friend I'd been talking about in an earlier text, yup, we were friends for quite a while before we started dating years ago. Anyway, it was an uncomfortable setup for a lot of people, my family got used to her again after not too long, some other people didn't, and let it fester without any kind of escape.

Things were going alright for us, but we realized that as boyfriend/girlfriend things just weren't working out, that, though we both still care about each other, we're better off being just good friends. Especially seeing as we don't have enough common interest to actually have fun together. We were just trying to hold on to dating, even though we both realized the eventual outcome. In short, we're not dating anymore, and again, sorry to anybody who for any reason was offended. Talk to me if there were or are issues.

Life is confusing, things seem to hardly ever happen the way you think they will, decisions that you thought were set in stone change based on situation. Sometimes things you thought you knew, you find out were never true. Often what you want to see blurs what really is, and likewise, what you expect can be turned completely on it's head by what really happens. Isn't life fun? Personally I'm still looking for my happy ending, I expect it's a ways off, time will tell. Let's hope I can be patient enough to make it to the right destination.